"You are worth it all"-29 weeks

How far along? 29 weeks
Weight gain/loss: Well...at the MRI last week (28 weeks) I had lost another 3 pounds from week 27. Since then, Jordan and my Mom have been constantly checking on my eating and forcing me to eat. As long as my doctor is not concerned and as long as Logan is gaining weight, I think it's ok. Some people gain a ton of weight on bedrest...I guess I do the opposite. No worries though, Jordan and my Mom have joined forces and are making sure I don't lose anymore.
Maternity clothes? mix of both...I pulled out a non-maternity shirt yesterday to wear to my doctor's appointment and thought for sure it would be too small. I was wrong. It's the shirt I'm wearing in my "bump" pic below.
Stretch marks? None yet
Sleep? I had 5 great nights of sleep while Jordan was home on vacation. I think it's because we stayed up late each night watching tv. However, I'm still getting up at least 5 times during the night.
Best moment this week? We paid off my car on Christmas Day!!!! We paid it off in 33 months instead of the original 60 I had signed up for. It is SUCH a relief to not have a $450 car payment anymore. Now that I'm out of work until April/May, it will be a big help.
Food cravings: Nada
Gender: BOY
Belly button in or out? In
Movement? All the time...Logan is getting so big that I'm feeling/seeing kicks on my right side of my stomach, almost around to my back. I really don't know how he is going to fit in there much longer, but he needs to find a way!
What I miss? Being able to go out to dinner with Jordan.
What I'm looking forward to: Our last New Year's as just the two of us! We have plans to stay home and ring in the year our son will be born by celebrating just the two of us.
Milestones: LAST WEEK IN THE 20's!!!!!! woohoo

Our Christmas:
My family has always celebrated Christmas on Christmas Eve. We went to my parents' house and enjoyed delicious food and spending time with my family. My Mom's words to me when we started opening gifts were, "The days of you getting spoiled are over. From now on, it's about Logan." hehe. I wouldn't want it any other way. Jordan asked me what I wanted this year and I told him nothing...I just want a healthy baby and things for him. My parents spoiled him rotten...he got blankets, socks, gift cards, a crib mattress, a stuffed animal, outfits, and a baby monitor. My Mom had a blanket and onesie from the Disney store monogrammed with his name on it. CUTEST. THING. EVER. My Dad got him a very preppy Longhorn/polo onesie. Jordan was most excited about this! Jordan and I didn't get gifts for each other this year. We plan on purchasing a new video camera in the next few weeks so we can video every little thing this little boy does!

MRI/ultrasound:
My ultrasound at Texas Children's was at 7:30 am last Wednesday. It started off with the nurse taking 75 pictures of Logan....every bone and organ. Then, the radiologist came in and took 20 more pictures. I'm pretty sure we win the award for the most ultrasound pictures during a pregnancy. Right now, we're at close to 150. whoa. After the ultrasound, I went to another location for the MRI. Of course, there was another 30 minute wait. By this time it was close to 11am. They took me back , gave me earplugs, and began the MRI. Let me just say, small spaces don't bother me, however, I panicked during that MRI. The lady left the room and started the machine and Logan started going CRAZY. I just knew he was scared from the sounds. He was kicking and wiggling like never before. I tried to breathe normally and not panic because I didn't want him to feel me being nervous. About 30-40 minutes in, I was sweating so bad and felt like I was going to throw up so I pushed the button. The lady came back in, pulled me out, and gave me some juice. I didn't know how much more I could take in there. She assured me it was almost over so I sucked it up and told her to let's get it over with. We started again and I swear it felt like an eternity. Every time the loud bangs would stop, I would think, "Whew...it's over." Not so fast...it would start up again! Finally, it was over. She pulled me out, wheeled me back to my room, I got dressed, and went out to the waiting room to meet my Dad. Then I broke down. I started crying like a baby and I didn't care who was staring at me. I am so tired of feeling sick and being poked, prodded, and put through all of this. It also didn't help that Logan was scared. My poor baby.

Flash forward to yesterday, we had our follow up with the high-risk doctor. After waiting in the waiting room for well over an hour, we finally were taken back. The nurse did an ultrasound first to get some measurements. I am 29 weeks today, but all of Logan's measurements were over 30 weeks. His overall gestational age is 30 weeks 5 days! This doctor was calculating a due date of March 3rd, instead of the 15th. He now weighs about 3lbs 6 oz!!!! HOLY COW. He has gained 1 lb 1 oz in 12 days. No wonder I've been getting more and more uncomfortable this past week...baby is getting BIG. After getting the measurements, the doctor came in and went over the MRI results. She said that the radiologist said the small spot in Logan's tummy is located on the liver and is a "vascular origin." It is not any form of tissue and is not harming him in any way. They took multiple pictures of the liver and it looks perfect and healthy. The radiologist recommends leaving it alone and NOT having anyone operate on our baby after delivery. We will probably have an ultrasound done when he is a month old to check to see if it has grown and then have the same thing done periodically in the future. The high risk doctor then remeasured my cervix and said it was the same length as my doctor has been getting for 3 weeks now...woohoo!!! She was VERY pleased with how well I've been doing and how big Logan is getting. She thinks I can definitely make it to 36 weeks...we shall see.

"You are worth it all"
Last week, I received a gift in the mail from my parents' dear friend, Dee. She went to college with them and they have stayed friends all these years. Dee is one of the sweetest women I have ever met and she is always doing nice things for our family. Anyway, I opened the package and there was a sweet note and necklace inside. The necklace made me cry. It's a round pendant with baby footprints on it and below them it says, "You are worth it all." It immediately made me remember why I am doing all of this. I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember and I already have never felt so much love for someone I have not even met yet. I am already wearing the necklace and won't take it off until after he is born. When he comes home, I plan on putting it in a small shadow box and hanging it in his room.

Dear Logan,
You are worth it all. You are worth the year long wait I went through until Daddy was ready to have a baby. You are worth the 14 weeks of all day morning sickness. You are worth the 30+ doctor's appointments I will have been to by the time you arrive. You are worth the surgery I went through to keep you safe. You are worth the nasty medicines I had to take that made me so sick. You are worth a 10 day hospital stay. You are worth the 6 1/2 weeks of bedrest I have already completed and the 6-7 weeks I still have to go. You are worth not being able to work. You are worth the pump I have to wear in my leg and the monitoring I have to do twice a day. YOU ARE WORTH IT ALL.

I have never felt a love like I already feel for you. You are my most prized possession and I'm so proud to be your Mommy. You are one tough little guy and I can't wait to see your sweet face. All that I have been through, that WE have been through, is worth it....I would do it all again. I would do ANYTHING to make sure you get here safely. Monkey, YOU are worth it.

I love you,
Mommy